¶Friday, December 5, 2008¶
♥A penny for my thought.♥
life has been rather plain this days. School, Eat, Game, Sleep. Only 4 things that i do nowadays. Its been a year since i was last slashed in the heart. It was painful. So detrimental that i can still feel it now. Chatting with M just makes me realized a lot of things about life. I suddenly realized that i don't have a lot of close friends. Friends they come and go how many of them actually stay in touch with you for your entire life? Speaking of close frens, yea i tink in this world the one person who understands me best is my 11 year friend- out of my 19 years of life- Ky. Im thinking right now how long will we keep in touch in life.
Im thinking of many things about life. What if my love life history repeats itself? what if i get stabbed again in the heart in future.. wont i leave the world alone?
Im so afraid that one day my parents would leave the world.. leaving me the only child alone.. and maybe afew decades later.. i would die a lonely death.
I really miss the feeling of being in love. Someone to be there. Even if the world abandoned me,i know that im not alone, i still have someone. When can i have this feeling come back to me again? I dun wanna be alone on christmas, on new year day, on my birthday.. i wanna share my happiness and sadness with someone.. I wanna be part of someone life as well. sigh* whatever. guess it will be a long wait though.
gones*